Fifteen days to make you love me

Day 3: I want her to believe.

This is one of the hardest things that I’ve had to do in my life. That sounds crazy, but it’s true. It’s hard not to tell her I love her every two seconds just to hear her say “I love you, too.” It’s hard not to kiss her when I’m with her. God, I miss her lips. Her soft, soft, soft lips. We used to talk about how we’re going to lay and just kiss for hours! That’s funny. I’d really do it.

She makes me feel so complete. I lived my life for years trying to find something to fill the gap that I had. I didn’t think it would be love, though. I figured I was missing something tangible. I’m glad she proved me wrong. Now, I wish I would have spent less money on countless things and more time looking for her. Actually, she came into my life right when she needed to. It’s not a day too soon.

I want her to wake up one of these days, call me, and tell me that she feels it again. I’m waiting. It’s a long process. It’s only been three days, though. I’m waiting on her to believe in this again and not second guess her heart. She needs to. Everything that happens isn’t an omen against our love.

I deeply believe in the word of God. John 10:10 reads: “The enemy comes not but to steal, kill, and destroy; but I come that you may have life and have it more abundantly.” What she may feel is a sign that this isn’t right, I feel that it’s the Devil trying to mess up what God has set forth. I need her to believe that God is showing her a beautiful life through me. Don’t get discouraged. Don’t give the Devil credit by thinking that these trivial things are more than mischievous works trying to ruin what God has for you. It happens to some of the best people. Baby, we’ve both been in Church long enough to hear all of the testimonies about the bad trying to mess up the good. Our grandmother’s didn’t give up. Why should we?

Believe.