Day 6: It feels like day one all over again.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Day 6: It feels like day one all over again.

I miss you so much. It’s taken every inch of me not to call you. My heart feels empty. I never would have known how much I could give a person. Without you, I don’t feel like anything. Baby, you’ve given so much color to my life. I’m back at square one. This is how I felt before you and I. Remember those nights I spent venting to you? Of course you do. I’m looking at the ceiling for answers again.

I wish that love was enough to make you want this. Maybe I’m living in a fairytale, but I’d rather be there and have my thoughts about love than be a rational realist. I’d rather think that love conquers all and believe in the Beatles: All you need is love. That’s what I want to base my life around. Knowing that there is nothing that can conquer what I feel. There is no pain that will outlast my love for you. You can be the rational one. I’ll be the hopeless romantic.

So, maybe this fifteen days blog won’t work for you. Maybe I’ll end up with a disappointment my heart isn’t ready for. I don’t know what I’d do after that. I pray you find out, sooner than later, that I’m what’s right in this world. Everything is up at ends. We’re going through some of the hardest times in recent history; but I’m what’s good. Don’t throw that away.

I love you.