Hey, babe, your heart is showing.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Hey, babe, your heart is showing.

I have the privilege to love one of the most kind hearted women that I’ve ever met. I haven’t had an immense amount of luck during our relationship. I’ve seriously been stripped of every luxury I’ve had in my life. It’s crazy, because I felt like everything I had validated me. I was proud of my material value, but not so much proud of myself as a man. Instead of facing the world, I bought myself anything I could to hide it. She has seen the honest me in the wake of it all. I was really afraid it’d push her away, but she’s been by my side.

Money has been my foundation over the years. If I had money, I was happy. I don’t care what any of you say, money indeed bought me happiness for that short time. Today, I’m without anything. She has been there 100%. Every step of the way, I’ve had her in my corner being as supportive as she possibly could be.

Her heart is so beautiful. I think that God has put me through all of this to take me off my high horse, but also teach me how to see the good in a situation. She has been my good. I’m convinced that he’s allowed me to go through so much turmoil to be able to see how genuine a person is. My main concern with the people in my life was that I didn’t feel like they were genuine or true. I felt like everyone came into my life for a season. I’ve been shown how genuine, true, and real she is. There is good in this. Now, I’ve lost it all and I can rebuild it with someone that I know is worth it.